photo not mine
This totally struck me. In 2019, I got my degree and took 3 months before I got my first job. My heart was fixed on pursuing my career in the company where I took my internship. But then I found out they were freeze hiring at that time. So after that, I wasn’t really sure what I wanted. It was so hard for me to decide what I wanted to do and where I wanted to go. Nonetheless, in the back of my mind, I knew I wanted to work in the office and be in the airline industry since that’s kind of the stigma when you finish a degree in Tourism Management; plus, when I was in college, I was never interested when we discuss about the hotels. But then this opportunity in the hotel industry came. Not only it wasn’t in the airline industry, it was also in the operations – a total opposite of what I knew I wanted. Now, don’t get me wrong for being too picky for someone in the entry level of her career. We are entitled to dream of what we want for ourselves.
After 4 months in the operations, I was asked if I wanted to apply for a position in the Sales&Marketing department. At first, I was hesitant because from the background I was given, the people I was supposed to be working with are hell of a skillful, experienced, and talented people. Not to mention, they are all excellent in people skills and then there’s me – the awkward, non-sociable person I am. Anyway, of course I got so intimidated even without meeting them yet, but I reminded myself of this quote that says ‘hardest battles are given to the strongest soldiers.’ It was a big step for me because in my current job at that time, I knew there wasn’t growth for me there. So I took a leap of faith; I applied for it and fortunately, I got the new position.
I loved my new job. I loved everything I was learning. Finally, I was beginning to see a future for myself. I was satisfied with what I was doing. Then, the pandemic boomed. My work got affected; I got laid off. I waited and still am waiting to go back. I feel like my personal and career growth got delayed. At the start of the year, I was so excited to experience every season at work – the challenges that comes with it, the celebrations, my improvements, my potentials getting unfolded. I was thrilled to envision a whole year of work experience.
I pictured my 2020 with at least 50,000PHP on my savings account before the year ends, helping my sisters with our financial needs at home, buying things I like, going to places I want to see, treating myself out for a coffee, and slowly achieving all the other things I dream about. But I cannot control the things that happened this year. I have to accept this setback.
I may not have achieved everything I thought I would this year, at least I got the time to pause and see life differently. I have always wanted more; I don’t think that’s a bad thing, though. But now, I appreciate the little things the most.
I may have got delayed for now, but that doesn’t mean I will stop.
The Melancholic Soul 