As a child, I wandered off
Innocently in a strange world
Where I have yet to master
Discernment of harm and danger
–
I’d put up my bravado,
Put my confidence in your example;
Said if you have endured it,
Then you would walk me through it
–
As I grew older,
So did my world get tougher;
Went looking for your shadow
That I expected to guide me
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I thought I’d lost my way
But then there’s a voice inside my head;
A woman trying to direct me
Back to your path that awaits me
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As I tried to follow,
I realized ’twas not where I wanted to go;
Said I’d rather go on my own
Than to keep losing you
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I took a step back and looked from afar;
The path I once took –
Your path that I followed,
Was too much for a child to handle
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I struggled a long time
Trying to manage my own path;
I cried countless times
Thinking how could I not be of your standards
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At times when I fall,
I would find myself alone;
Blinded by my insecurity
That I was not enough
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Then again I heard that rescuing voice,
Leading me to a safer world –
A world that filled my brokenness
With warmth like the one you gave to others
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Two different paths shaped me,
Paths that led me to my own journey;
Finally, I learned to love
The person that I have become
–
My wisdom, the reflection
Of that kind woman’s heart;
My strength, the echo
Of all the pain you caused me